Move on?

The following events  happened last wednesday at the house of a friend:

Me: I'm envious of the (insert name of group of friends here). They're complete and they get to hang out during school breaks
Friend: Well, those people are stuck on their high school life
Me: how so?
Friend: I mean, they don't want to get over their high school lives that is why they hang out whenever they can. But people have to move on, which do you prefer high school or college?
Me: College...
Friend: See what I mean, people have to grow up and move on with their lives. The people you meet in college are better than the people in high school, if you keep on hanging out with your friends in high school you are putting up a wall for your self.

end of scene


When my friend said this, I couldn't react at first. I was just complaining about the fact that our barkada has never had a bonding moment where we were complete. By the way she explained herself, it almost meant that she doesn't see us as people worth hanging out with anymore. I just can't believe it, or maybe that was just how I interpreted what she said. But come on, just because your college life is better than your high school life doesn't mean that you should move on with your life and stop hanging out with us your FRIENDS.

Whether they were your friends in high school or in college, they are still your friends right? Wouldn't you want to see them after a long time?

It's not being selfish

hey there. 

I think I've calmed down enough to push the thoughts deep down, and I mean really deep. I know it's wrong to be like this, avoiding situations and just letting things be. But I've been living that way. So right now, I believe that everything will be alright sooner or later. I just have to focus on my studies first and all my other activities. I can distract myself for as long as I want and I don't care, because if I start to I'll just end up confused and too distracted to learn and live my life.

This all sounds selfish and whatnot, but come on! I have had enough of all this. Giving way to other people, thinking and worry of other people, helping with problems and concerns of other people. When will I get to think of my own for once. My own well-being, my own happiness, my own life!

I know that people have noticed how I would always move people ahead of me and one of them told me "You should stop this, it's not good for you anymore". To think the person who told me this is someone whom I have been hanging out with for 3 years while my other and older friends haven't thought of noticing how I really am. Maybe they have gotten used to it or they just didn't notice at all because I'm just in the sidelines for them.

Here's a thought, why do our newer friends realize how one's personality is earlier than our older friends? :/